posted on: Saturday, February 1, 2014
do you look like your family?
growing up in sydney as a half asian, half european child with no full siblings and no eurasian friends, I often felt like I was odd.
I wanted to look like everyone else, as most kids tend to do. light brown hair and freckles was standard in the playground. instead I had absolutely white skin and almost black hair.
but ever the resourceful child, I took it upon myself to draw freckles on my face. with texta.
a few years later, part of my wish to look like my friends came true.
due to all my '90s sydney-style suntanning* real freckles started to appear all over my face. I have them still.
and as I've gotten older I've come to embrace my almond shaped eyes, my flatter nose and my almost black, straight hair.
but I haven't lost the habit of looking for myself in other people. when I meet other eurasians I may have nothing at all else in common with them, but I still feel a little reassured when I see them: I am not alone.
and then two years ago I gave birth to the lady. my third child. maybe she won't always look like me. but right now, after all this time, there's someone in my family that looks a lot like me. it's kinda nice.
how did you feel about your appearance when you were a kid? I'd love to hear.
* against my mum's wishes, of course. in stereotypical asian fashion she avoids the sun unless armed with a hat or umbrella, and of course has fantastic skin to show for it.